project 1- 30 Minutes is all it takes

Create some free time when he gets home.

The Project:
Focus on your husbands transitional 30 min today. Would he like to be left alone to rest and rejuvenate, or does he want some undivided attention from you? The point is to let your Husband know you value what he does out in the world, and that he has a safe, loving place to come home to and get refreshed at the end of the day.

My Plan For The Day :

My plan for the day is simple. Since at the moment my husband is laid off i will be focusing on a rejuvenating time for him to take to him self away from the children to read the bible or play some madden which ever he chooses. This will be so that he doesnt feel like he has a task at home that he might have to complete. This time is for him and only him!

His Reaction/My Results:

The Husband Project - the new start

The Husband Project , 21 Days of Loving Your Man On Purpose and With a Plan. I have mentioned this book so many times and have even started it as well. I always seem to quit half way through feeling like it is not needed.

Well this time its different. I am not doing it out of a need of necessity but because i simply want to. Each day for the next 21 days i will be doing a project out of this book. Starting first thing in the morning i will love my husband with a plan and a want and complete this very simple challenge.  

trying

i am trying. i am praying. i know things arent easy and i know they all come in time and when they are truly needed. so i am trying to wait and i am hopeful when it will.

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my struggle - trying to not try so hard

church, i have gone back. it has been a mixture of happiness and feelings of how much more easier it would be to just stay home. the children are having a blast {well the older ones} and my hubs and father love it as well. i love it dont get me wrong but it still just isnt what i think i need. the first week back it went great. the kids {all 4} went into there rooms had fun and played. no tears. the fellowship was simply wonderful. the second week, while the fellowship was still ok the babies didnt want to be there. they came in with us which made it not as enjoyable as with them in their rooms. i was unable to worship due to the music being to loud for them. then last week. well it just was no fun. i missed half the message for the same reasons as the week before and it was just not as pleasant. i am hoping that it will i need it to. i need fellowship i need the time i need the messages.  i just need them

back on track ... starting with the husband project

i love this book and the projects it has in side. so it i time to get back to it. i will be starting out with the husband project. i mean he deserves a little pampering to!!!

project 1- 30 mins is all it takes

create some free time when he gets home

the plan-the kids are always so excited when daddy gets home. i mean even the dog jumps around. so today when he gets home i will take the kids into the big girls room to read a story to them. therefore E can grab a shower and relax for a min. he might get done before he reaches 30 mins but it ill be the chance to relax that counts.

update on the children

while this is a blog about me, they are me. so i wanted to update a picture instead of updating them each. they ave gotten so big since i have been posting here. my youngest the boy cristofer, well he is almost one. so here they are.

when is enough enough ???

so before i moved here to Vegas, i have always known god. i have always wanted to be in his love and love my god. i never found a a church nor a fellowship that i felt i belonged to. i went to church with my life long best friend Sarah. her family opened me up to a wonderful fellowship and love for god. the church though that we went to just wasn't for me.

when i got to Vegas i met a friend. she is a christian and thought that i would love the church she went to. we tried it out it was great and now i am member, my hubs an i both got baptized and we loved the fellowship. her family and her stop going our friendship fell apart because we are two different types of women and the fellowship changed once location of the church changed.

so i will get to the point. i have been trying to be a "good christian" . i have been trying to bring her back to what she brought me to, trying to meet on common grounds, have bible studies what ever. and i guess its just a shove in the heart when the person who open those doors for you shut their own. when is enough enough? when do i no longer have to try ?? when is it enough?? because all the stunts in tat relationship make me feel like i may have not really learned anything. that maybe the person who brought me there lost their way do to me. i just don't know when enough is enough.

it is just time

its time for me to get back to me.time to get back to knowing him. time to get back to learning and teaching. its just time!

i miss reading my bible studies and i miss going to church. i guess i will have to get over the not having fellowship the way i want to and i guess i will be doing bible study on my own. but that is okay. i will be doing it on my own and i may not have the fellowship i am looking for but i will have him and i will know him.

it all got away from me and i wont allow it anymore. i miss him and it is time to get back to him !!!

love dare

so i have been doing it but really the first few days there isnt anything to really talk about because we do these types of things anyways ... but i am sure that it will come to were its hard and i am venting. stay tuned

the first work out

what was i thinking .... it hurt ... i dont feel much right now but i am sure i am going to feel it soon. I had a friend that worked out with me so it made it easier. Do i want to do it again?? yea .. no but i will. Right after we sat down and talked about some things and shared some things. We got deep and teared up. It is nice having others on the same path.

Now all i have to do is stick with this . So i will atleast try three times a week and also watch what i eat. Food doesnt have to make me happy it just has to taste good...

so here i go !

And so it begins

I will be doing two challenges at once. Love Dare and The Husband project. Love dare is longer so at around 21 days i will be left with just one.

Day one:
love dare-

Love is Patient.
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love- Ephesians 4:2

Dare-
resolve to demonstrate patience an to say nothing negative to your spouse at all.

husband project-
project one-
30 Mins is all it takes - create some free time when he gets home

how is love dare you ask?

Well i dont think i have put my all in it this time around and its only day three. So i have plans on starting all over today and put my all in it.My husband as been the best. I know it is hard for him being laid off but he should be porud of him self, hes a hard worker. its time for a break. Ok today i start my self loving time. i will be working out with a friend and i know it will hurt and i hope i can get through it. im not to sure i can so we shall see. I want to love me more ... yup even more then i already do because i think i have earned it.

i am off now i should be posting in tears not to long from now, so we will see if my fingers will be the one part on me that doesnt hurt.

Back ... No really i am back

Now that my brother has came to town and has worked on my computers I can now get back to my blog. Recently I have been trying pretty hard to get things on track but it hasn’t been too easy. The truth is I don’t think I have been trying the hardest that I could be and I think that now is better then any other time to get on myself.

I was blessed enough to meet a group of people (ladies) that are Christian and are on the same path if not very close to the path that I am on. We are all going to start love dare together. Some to fix their problems that they may have, and others to just keep the happiness that they have now still going strong. Some like myself have already tried getting through love dare but just couldn’t. So now we have others to talk to about what we are going through.

On Friday I went to a meet up with those from this group and enjoyed myself.AS I have said many times before, I have a hard time being so open about my love for God and one of the things I am working on is letting go of that. So on the way home while driving I told myself when my house gets back to normal I wanted to sit down and write an email to all the ladies (who yes all gave me their email addys) and thank them. I have found women my age who are so open about their love for God and their passion was just so great to see that it made me see that it is okay. It hit me so hard that I broke down crying listening to a song that spoke the same message I was asking for. I have realized that every last one of these ladies was brought to me for a reason ...

so here we go people ... im back to my many challenges ....