my little"big" girl

today when i took april to school i told my self i wouldnt linger like the other parents. that i could go two little hours with out her. i was so wrong. i pulled up to the gate got her out of the car gave her her glasses and a kiss. sent her off running through the gate. got back into the car and started to drive off when i noticed that her little friends she made the day before werent there yet and she was looking for me. i was already where i couldnt back up the car so i drove around the school and back into the parking lot because i was so ready to get all the kids out and stand there with her. but when i seen her she was having fun talking with the teacher and making even more friends. her little buddies got there not to long after and i knew she was fine but i couldnt get myself to pull away. i wanted to watch her and enjoy her simple happieness. i didnt think the second day would be so hard. i didnt think she would grow up so fast. she is still five i know but she just doesnt need me the way she use to anymore ... and i am a little lost.